sometimes i still have to remind myself that i shouldnt be smiling...nor making jokes with people

i shouldnt be longing for the day to end so i could go home and be with you

i shouldnt be planning of things to do, movies to watch, places to go to

i shouldnt be looking beyond today and the now

because i feel that all i have are all in the past...and there's nothing left for me now.

over.

done.

it has been a long while since i last posted an entry.  used to write a few notes here and there in my private blog but i think this has been the longest time i havent written anything, anywhere.

cant say the past couple of months were uneventful, its just that aside from the fact that ive been sooo busy with work, i would always be too exhausted and preoccupied to even think of spending an hour or so blogging.  i miss this so much.  its been so long that it felt like writing for the first time. 

there has been so many changes in my life that i dont even know where to start.  oh well, i dont think some things would dramatically change  but somehow i can tell, there has been some "improvements" that im thankful for.

2007 has been quite good to me when it comes to my personal relationships.  i may not have been in so very good terms with people at home but i know they  understand....

ive learned a lot the past year....about myself, about being in a relationship.  and here i was thinking that i knew so much already. 

2007 may not have given me the assurance and security of the future but one thing im sure of, in 2008, things will only get better. 

Happy New Year everyone!!!